So this is my first blog post, and I promise they won't all be about weather or my foul mood. I guess I should explain my reasons for starting the blog. After 3 years of trying to conceive, on Nov 1, 2008, I got the greatest surprise of my life - I was pregnant. My husband and I had just gotten back from our trip to Phoenix/Grand Canyon, and after a week of feeling extremely tired all the time-bordering on narcolepsy, and expecting my period, I got home to a big surprise. I actually took 5 pregnancy tests to be sure I was. I was thrilled and terrified all at once. As the weeks (and months progressed) we had our 3 month (12 week) sonogram (all ok), and then another sonogram at 20 weeks. Unfortunately we received horrible news at this visit. Almost 3 weeks ago, I ceased being a mom to be. While the days following our bad news were/are filled with tears and heartbreak, my husband and I are trying to survive and take each day as it comes. No easy feat, I can assure you. Anyway, I am still very much trying to make sense of it all, somehow learn from it, and try and move on but not forget.